I know what death feels like now. I can feel it in these new hands that touch me.
Maybe I should have anchored myself to Malachi some more, made him be more cautious of who I was before him. I didn't. And now we're miles apart and all I can do is hope he'll come for me. Why would he, though? I'm a no one to him. I was just a bargain we made – a novelty for him to play with.
This situation was always in the cards for me. There was never any outrunning it, or avoiding it. But even now I wish I could have had more time in the safe arms that held me firmly. Safe. Not a word any of us understand, but I wanted to be just that. I needed to be. And I was. Until I wasn't.
Who knows how this story ends? Not me, that's for sure.
But I do know I'll never forget the one man who meant more to me than anyone ever has.
I'll never forget the love I felt.